Saturday, August 04, 2007

Sunday Scribbling - "Decisions"

With all our balls up in the air, my recent fall, a suspect mass in my breast and a two day migraine, I find myself unusually calm. I decided we have made some great decisions but our timing was just off and it will right itself. My decision to go on a trip in the middle of our chaos is pulling me through it all. Dave is now wishing he was going after seeing the pictures of New England but he would not be able to relax with so many changes coming.

I made another big decision for myself this week at my surgeon's appointment. I was sent to a new surgeon in our county and I liked her immediately. My first question was had she bought a house yet? I explained my unusual outburst and she laughed saying "I did, but my retired father n law from Texas is looking to re-locate here." I said "boy, have I got a deal for you." She saw my huge black/blue bruise and I said "if you look closely you can see the face of Jesus" and she quickly replied "we need to get you up on Ebay." My kinda gal!

She explained that my mass is not a fibroid but instead it's a cluster of cysts attached to a suspect lining. It needed to be surgically removed and biopsied. I told her that I get really sick with anesthesia and I asked if she would remove it with me awake. I also asked if she could do it before Dave retires. She asked me if I was sure and then agreed, scheduling me in for this Wednesday...yikes! She offered me a "happy shot" and to drain my other numerous cysts while I'm there. Again, my kind of woman! It would be really cool if she sold my house too. ;)

Yes, I'm nervous but the decision was mine and I know I can do it. Dave said he will come hold my hand but he refuses to look. lol I told him to get a picture for my blog and you should have seen his face. lol She said the mass was so small that if it is cancer it will be gone after surgery. Everything is back in working order but I got a headset for PC to PC chatting on Yahoo. Tuesday is Dave's retirement bash and Wednesday is surgery so I'll be baacck!

Photo is from stockxpert


Becca said...

Tammy, I'm holding you in my heart, and sending millions of positive thoughts to you for this week! Hang in there girl...

Love you lots! xoxoxo

kate said...

Thinking of you and admiring the way your sense of humour shines through even in difficult and stressful times.

Hug and hopes that the week goes well! kate ox

TJ said...

Heal my friend and I will check back with you!
Brave gurl....what big balls you have!!!
Love you,
hiding over here..starting over agin.
I know...I have issues.

Jessie said...

good luck with everything, tammy! you are a strong woman and i am sure you will do fabulously. i'm glad to hear that you have a doctor that you can trust. that counts for a lot!

i'm sending you love,

pepektheassassin said...

Tammy, you are soooo funny! I just laughed out loud at your bruise (sorry) but your comment was hilarious. I told my husband, and he thought your thinking was "pretty quick" and funny, too.

I finally had a mammogram done (only six months late). Came back OK. What we go through....I'll be sending good thoughts your way!

Star said...

This sounds like a very positive outlook and that's what I'm going to concentrate on. I hope you'll be alright with the "happy shot."

I agree that getting to it right away makes sense for so many reasons. Why wait? The sooner it's out, the sooner you'll heal and be in tip top shape for your trip in autumn.

I love your sense of humor, and it sounds like your surgeon has one to match. Perhaps this is the contact that will sell your house!

Sending love and big hugs, Tammy :)

pepektheassassin said...

BTW, take a picture of the bruise before it disappears. I wanna see! I wanna see!

Kelly said...

wow, it sounds like everything is falling together (in the boob department at least!) I'm so glad you found somebody you are comfortable with and that is willing to go the extra mile to make you happy.

Amber said...

Oh sweet lady!! I am so sorry you are going through all of this. But you sound so good. Like you are really dealing. I look up to you so much!

I will be saying prayers.


Liza's Eyeview said...

Let me know if you get "auctioned" in Ebay - I'll bid.

You're going through a lot - I am glad the peace that passeth all understanding is with you.

I prayed for you while reading your post. God loves you so much, I know you know that already :)

January said...

Sending good thoughts your way. I'm sure everything will be fine. Stay strong.

Jone said...

Tammy, I will hold you in thought and prayer this week. I admire your courage. Your doctor sounds awesome.

Nancy said...

Hey Tammela,

I suppose much of this is good news actually...despite how scary it all can be..and of course, overhwhelming. Just keep in mind your New England visit, the new house, the love you share with Dave, the love of your friends (like me!)...and all that good stuff.
You'll do great....especially with your goofy attitude!


Anonymous said...

I SO admire your strength and positivity. I really, really do. You are amazing, girl!

Good luck and I'll be praying for you.

Rose Dewy Knickers said...

Your faith is inspiring Tammy. I know that you are a marvel to me. Good luck with the surgery and with hubby's retirement. And sell that house!



Jimmy said...

So, so much going on. I can only sit here and admire not only your courage, but your grace under fire, and the presence of mind to sit and write about it so beautifully. You get to be my hero more and more every day.

Chris said...

She sounds like a great doctor, like our family doctor. You can't say enough for the human side of medicine, even as important as the technology has grown!

Have a great weekend!
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Kamsin said...

Prayers and hugs going your way this week Tammy. You are so strong and brave.

khambagirl said...

Sending you good wishes, hugs and prayers this week! Can I borrow some of your sense of humor this week?

giggles said...

What a woman!!! You truly have an amazing spirit. Can we bottle that up do you think? Can't buy that kind of a character! Glad you have a good doctor. I am saying prayers for you and visualizing good things!

Love and a big hug

TI said...

Thinking of you, my twin. Now I know why my attitude has been so bad lately: I haven't been reading the daily warrior. Best of luck with the surgery -- it's a good sign, I think, that you have found such a wonderful surgeon

Gemma said...

Tammy, Thanks so much for your kind remark on my blog...seeing Jesus in your bruise like that and with your sense of humor and all the rest that is on the horizon for you....I send you love and hope Ebay brings $$$$

Frances said...

Sending healing energy your way.
Thanks for taking the time to visit me.
Peace & Joy,

Regina Clare Jane said...

No one is braver than you, dear Tammy- you are such an inspiration. I would be freaking out at this point!
You're my hero!

tinker said...

Sending you many, many (((HUGS))) and well-wishes - you are a warrior woman extraordinaire!

And that surgeon is pretty good, too - maybe she will sell your house - to her father-in-law, heehee! I'll keep my eye out on e-bay for you! o_0

Redness said...

You're a sweetheart Tammy! What a brave and fearless woman you are! Huge Hugs to you OOOOOOOO

Remiman said...

You are a wise woman Tammy. I sit in that picture everyday and I think you made the best decision to go without general anesthesia. I always advise patients to go with the least amount if anesthesia necessary.

gautami tripathy said...

Tammy, I am very glad I know you via the blog world.

paris parfait said...

Sweetheart, enjoy Dave's retirement party and don't worry about Wednesday - you have a good doctor (always a good sign if he or she has a sense of humour), a good handholder and hundreds of prayers for a positive outcome. xoxoxox And maybe she will sell your house! :) xo

Jennifer said...

I couldn't see the face of Jesus but I could see a dove! Prayers are with you and that's good news that they can do the surgery so soon and meet all your requirements for it. If you can survive your hubby's retirement, you can survive anything...LOL

Jana B said...

*giving you a big hug*

I can't believe you're having surgery AWAKE!!!

You amaze me.

PS... you have yahoo? I have yahoo! Janatheshort is my name on there... feel free to add me!

Lucy said...

Tammy I want to wish you lots of luck tomorrow. I am so sorry for all you are going through. I am glad I tried to get on your blog again after reading all this. ( for many days Safari shut me down when trying your blog).
Everything will be fine and I love your courageous attitude. You are an amazing inspiration to all who know and read you. Hang in there buddy.. I will check back to see how you are... If I can't get on I will email you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. cyber hugs xo