Sara would soon be graduating college and instead of feeling joy she felt like she was walking in a fog. Sara was a smart girl and had been accepted into a good law school. Her friend's would often tease her that she wasn't a lawyer type and she silently agreed. But she would always smile at them as she pictured herself driving around town in her Mustang convertible with her perfect match by her side. She would make her parents proud by having more than they ever dreamed of.
She had a great childhood that was full of love with a great emphasis on education. Sara was told how special she was on a daily basis and growing up her childhood was filled with "be all you can be, follow your dreams and grab the big brass ring." Her parents saved and sacrificed for her education so she could concentrate strictly on school. Before she left home all she knew was her family but when she returned on vacations she had become a visitor.
Sara had spent her four years of college being very bored. It was not the boredom you feel after work and play but a soul-sapping emptiness. It gnawed at her gut making her a thinking ghost. She saw no reason to take classes about Jane Austen, theoretical physics or ancient Greeks for a law degree. When she was not behaving outrageously with her pals she would space out in front of the TV. Politics left her cold as she surfed passed the casualties of war without a single pause. She was clinging to the superiority of the present to out shine the past and believing everything would workout in the end.
She felt numb because nothing moved her deeply and any elation did not last very long. Her friends would become a blurred piece of her past once they all graduated. She was drifting and did not like what she was seeing in the mirror so she experimented with illegal drugs as a salve for her emptiness. This kept her absence of longing at bay but throughout her days it was never completely gone.
Sara became a lawyer, wife and mother. She repeated the patterns of her youth with plenty of platitudes. Without direction and balance she saw that familiar emptiness reflected in her children's eyes but it was simply too late.
I have been engrossed in research of apathy in our young adults. Lions for Lambs inspired me to find answers. I wrote this fictional piece on one young adult that describes what I'm seeing. Not all young people feel this way but sadly many do. Boredom is the common denominator which could be caused by the decline of politics, community, confidence in God or reason and clinging to a weakening doctrine of progress.