I could write about the time I stole candy from a grocery store and mom had laryngitis, so I was spared the yelling. I was, however, given the evil glare and humiliated with a tearful apology to the store manager. No, I won't write about that, because I learned not to take what was not mine.
I should write about the obscene phone caller who said he had my mom and would kill her, if I would not let the man outside in to rape me. He didn't have my mom and there was no one outside. He was later arrested, but my view of a safe world at 12 was stolen. No I won't write about that, because I learned to be vigilant and that trust must be earned.
I might have written about my fairytale dreams stolen by addiction and a man who will haunt my nightmares as long as I live. No, I won't write about that, because I learned courage and strength.
I thought about writing how the ocean stole my mother's young life at 44...about cancer taking the life of my favorite aunt and cherished grandma...about my grandfather's mind, stolen piece by piece by dementia until he died as a homeless man in his own home. Or I could write about my only brother taken away from his family by his addictions. Or about the ALS that will someday take my life. No I won't write about any of those, because I learned life is a precious gift... that God has a plan for each of us.
What I really want to write about is the loss of mankind and the security of the future for our children. War, illness, corrupt governments and global warming have never made me feel more helpless. I have learned many things in my darkest hours, but what of the innocents who will be left to inherit the evil threatening this planet? Will they have learned to be vigilant, strong and courageous? To grow in faith, reaching out to others in need? We can teach these things by example and not give up on the world crumbling around us. But will these lessons be learned in time?
"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, concerned citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has." -----Margaret Mead