Saturday, April 24, 2010

Sunday Scribblings - Wonder

I can't believe I took such a long blogging hiatus. I was sucked in to the ease and fun of Facebook. Many of you are there but I have missed many others. Not to mention being creative with poetry and journaling.

Wonder is an emotional feeling of awe for me. This winter I saw such bad behavior in people I love, the recession steal our retirement away and the loss of a dear friend to ALS. The wonder is not disappointment, shock or extreme grief, but of wonder on what came from it all.

The people I love I have chosen to love and I will not change them. I simply put new boundaries in place that will keep drama at a minimum. I feel like my journey has given me a 6th sense to stay focused on the wonderful gift of being loved and here.


When I see this man I wonder how he does so much with a smile and patience. He retired at 50 to be with me, but instead he now takes care of me, the house and is a full time custodian job to keep up with two mortgages. The housing market is still really bad here. He worries about my isolation and health but keeps being positive. He is extending the deck for a hot tub so I can have warm water workouts. He fills me with wonder everyday.



With the sudden passing of my dear friend Pam aka Batman, to my Robin, I was saddened and filled with wonder at the same time. She left this world on her terms and peacefully. I have let go of fears about death but it was a huge wake up call. I wondered why her and not me? Why I have lived 19yrs and can still walk when most live only 2-5yrs? My purpose became clear in my grief or Pam whispered in my ear, educate! I HATE fundraising and I'm frustrated with how many people don't even know what ALS is. I came up with "Educate it Forward." One person educates another about ALS and that person shares it forward. We have Croatia, New Zealand, Australia, Singapore, Philippines, London, Paris, Canada and the USA on board. Info is in my profile.

It's a wonder how much good can come from bad.

13 comments:

Dee Martin said...

I am sorry for your loss but love the idea of Educate it Forward - what an awesome idea.

Becca said...

YOU are a wonder :)

Queen-Size funny bone said...

I will pass it on and on.

Queen-Size funny bone said...

I will pass it on and on.

Nancy said...

It's no wonder why I love you...

Nance

emmapeelDallas said...

Ditto Nancy...and Tammy, I've been passing it on every since I met you; you are truly an inspiration and a warrior.

XO

Judi

Tabor said...

Glad to see you back if only briefly and I will also pass it on.

Kay McKenzie Cooke. said...

Great to see you blogging again Tammy. You have such a great philosophy it's nice to read longer versions! Plus we all have a different voice on FB and on blogs I believe. I like to hear all your voices!

Chris said...

Well Hello, my friend! Though I 'see' you everyday over at Facebook, it's good to come back here to visit, too. You go, girl! You are a ROCKSTAR!! ;)

Joyce Ellen Davis said...

You truly amaze me! You honor me with your friendship. xo

Lucy said...

THIS is why you (thankfully) are still here.. YOU will fight the fight this dreadful disease needs.. I've got my 'educate it forward' flyers in my salon and MAnY clients have taken one to place in their work place.
I am SO proud to represent NY and Pledge my love and dedication to u and to also educate it forward. YOU are such an inspiration Tam.. I am so honored to be your friend
xoxo

Lilibeth said...

Everyone should know about this disease. It is a wonder that you have been able to keep up your spirits and continue in the fight to educate people about it. You are right: It is a wonder how much good can come from bad.

pieceofpie said...

dearest tammy i have come by a few times and wondered where you were and how you are doing... it is a blessing to see you still smiling and existing to the fullest of your abilities... as always the love you and your husband share is overflowing onto all of us who love and care for you from a distance of bytes... you and your husband and your family are always in my prayers...